Yet unable to give up, I was asking to myself the following questions everyday.
－`Isn’t SHE anywhere? Isn’t there any young woman who can save a junk like me? A woman with extraordinary wisdom?
But what kind of wisdom could it be? I can’t even imagine it. SHE doesn’t exist in the real world anyway. I might as well cut off the carotid artery…’
Tortured by incessant desire to kill myself, one day, I was suddenly given an amazing inspiration